<3 Kacie && Sirius <3

[``kacie marie helms]

Dear Sirius,

I don't know what else I could call you by, but you might get a laugh out of what I've decided to name myself. Then again, I shouldn't have to worry about this letter falling into the wrong hands, for you are mischevious enough to come up with ideas of what could happen should anyone else get their hands on this letter.

Alright, enough with the death threats. How are you? I'm currently planning your demise as I write, considering the prank you pulled the other day. When am I to expect the return of my knickers? They're my favorite pair, as you now know =] and I do wish to have them back. Though the look on Evans' face was a right laugh, I'll admit-

Sorry, problem with Professor Binns for a moment. Bloody old ghost'll believe anything if you mention the Goblin Wars.

Awaiting your reply,
Misunderstood

[``sirius orion black]

Dear Misunderstood,

I'm doing alright I suppose. And I told you to stop worrying about someone catching us. As long as no one knows who you are but me, then it will be fine. I laughed when I read your name at the bottom, actually, but it fits quite well doesn't it?

I hate Binns' class. It's highly irritating. I usually try and get someone else to do my homework for me. If you know who I mean, of course. I should think that'd be quite obvious as to whom.

I'm glad you liked my prank. But, I should be thanking you. I wanted to do something like that, I just didn't know from whose underwear compartment I should steal from. Thanks for the idea. Besides, I rather liked rooting through her knickers. Most of them were quite appealing to me. I should like to see you wear them for me one day.

How are you, my fair lady? Doing well, I hope? And how's Thomas and your mother?

Signed,
The Joker

[``kacie marie helms]

Dear Joker,

A more fitting name for you than you could imagine. I couldn't have created a better one myself. And you know the reasons behind my incessant worrying. You know it's nearly second nature to me. Six years in this house have made me paranoid. And thank you, I thought my name was quite fitting, as well.

Ugh, I would say Binn's needs to die and be replaced by a decent teacher, but it's a bit late for that, isn't it? Even in the afterlife he insists on teaching students monotonously. I think it would be much more interesting, should they bring a teacher with...life into the class =]

You're welcome. I knew it would be a good idea to steal people's knickers, and I don't know whether to be infuriated or grateful for the honor of being 'The Best of Slytherin'. Who were the other's you got? I only remember myself and Evans. And thank you for the compliment on my knickers, I suppose. Don't expect to be seeing me in my knickers anytime soon, however. Sorry to burst your bubble, but since you stole mine, I think it's fair that I see you in yours far before you see me in mine.

Haha, no need for sucking up, Joker, we both know I'm not 'your fair lady'. Yes, I'm doing well, for the most part. Tired of dealing with these people, but that's nothing new. Unfortunately, that's my job, and I can't quit, no matter how horrid it might get. Thomas is doing alright, I suppose. I haven't gotten a letter from him in the past few days, which is a bit strange. I guess he's too busy with his little girlfriend to reply at the moment, or to afraid to go near Ivory - a story I'll have to tell you sometime - and I've no idea with my mother. Our relationship is still a bit strained, so we don't talk much. How are you? Any new ideas for pranks? Maybe we could see each other in Hogsmeade sometime. I'm already growing bored.

Sincerely,
Misunderstood

[``sirius orion black]

Dear Misunderstood,

I thought you might like it. And, I should be hurt if you were surprised. I know most don't think I'm clever, but I am quite smart. Well, now that you've got me as a friend, I won't let you worry as much. I'll be your shield, Kacie.

I laughed at that. I had to tell you such a thing because you can't hear me through a letter. I wish to speak to you again, Kacie. I do agree, though, Binns is increasingly boring. Every time I was in his class, I fell asleep. I'm glad I have Remus as a friend, otherwise I wouldn't be of much use to this school or to Aurors.

Well, I think it was Alecto Carrow and that Parkinson girl. Those were more of a joke than yours, I suppose. I don't like them at all, but I guess I like you a little. And, I had help from James to get Lily's. I knew she wouldn't approve, but she didn't have to know that he helped. He could tell her all he wanted that he had no part in it, but she's smarter than that. Besides, her knickers aren't half bad looking either. That's a shame, Kacie. You've ruined my hopes. True, but I think it will be much less pleasing in my eyes. Unless you like it.

How do you know? Have you asked me if you are? I mean, the saying could mean quite a lot of things, but I daresay you would have appreciated it. I suppose not. Just tell me what I can call you besides Misunderstood and your real name. I want a nickname for you that only I can use. I'm sure he'll send you one soon. If you have such a strong relationship, there's no doubt about that. He's probably is just busy with his girlfriend . . . or school. That might make you feel better. Ivory - Alright, I can't wait! Do you want to talk to her? I personally hate mine, but hell she's my mother after all. Unfortunately. Not much. I've been focusing on school work lately, to be honest. And don't make that face. I can see your eyebrows raising. Anyway, I'd love to, but we'll have to see when our schedules aren't full. Mine are usually full of . . . well you know.

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Siriusly,
The Joker

[``kacie marie helms]

Joker,

Well, I am surprised. Who knew a bloke such as you could come up with such a clever name? Seriously - ha - however, I do not doubt your intelligence. It takes brains to come up with such devilish schemes. Aww. That's so sweet, Joker, you had me shedding tears at your sincerety.

You know it is best to write 'haha' over "i laughed at that". It's so much simpler, and it's easier to remember your laugh when I read those words. I wish to speak with you again as well. It's tiresome, and I'm a person that is easily bored and entertained at the same time. For now, however, the only entertainment I recieve are these letters and spotting the occasional Slytherin with multi-colored hair. It's a struggle to keep my eyes open in his class for two minutes, let alone an hour or two. That is the class I suffered most in. Thankfully, it's not the most important course, so I don't have to make perfect grades for Auror training. =] I can't wait to get out of here, yet I'm desperate to stay. Is it strange for me to say?

Hahaha! Thank God you did that, I hate those bloody wenches. I bet they wear granny panties. And how were they more a joke than I? I find it a bit more embarrassing, since I've grown to know you a bit. I know it was all in good fun, but still. Yeah, Evans is far too smart to think you and the others acted on your own. Potter has always been involved in every single one of your pranks since your First Year, if the gossip is correct. Well, I'm sorry I ruined your hopes, but your imagination will suit you better than the reality. Believe me, I'm enjoying the mental image of you in your knickers as I write. Tell me, boxers or briefs?

No, I do not know, and I suppose I'll ask now. Boredom has left me open minded, so hit me with your best shot. Aw, I apologize for "not appreciating" it. I don't know what else you could possibly call me. Why don't you choose, and I'll tell you if I find it appropriate enough or not? You were right. I just recieved a letter from him. He wrote a few new songs, said they were for me. I can't help but find myself a bit worried about that fact. He might have written a blackmail song, haha. He's been having trouble, apparently. Unfortunately, I can't hex the sorry excuse for a girl that dated him, though, as I'm stuck here. Come summertime, however, the wench is gonna pay. She cheated on him. The sorry slag did that to my brother. *deep breath* *sigh* Anyways...

Okay, Thomas has always been afraid of my owl. When I first got brought her home before heading off to school, she attacked him. It was the funniest thing I'd ever seen in my life. He still won't go near Ivory. Honestly, I could care less what my mother has to say. The rift between us has gappened so far that I only speak to her because of Thomas. He's the only family I've got. Haha, you were right about the eyebrow raising, I'll give you that much. I've no idea when I'll be free. All of my free periods I've been spending on my studies, as are my weekends, when I'm not in detention. It's funny, a Prefect in detention. Then again, I never perform my Prefectly duties anyway, unless it involves exploring the caslte...

Hazah! An idea! I'm sure you can picture the look on my face now. I look like a bloody cheshire cat. I can tell you my patrol times, and where I'll be. We could meet and talk then.


Reluctantly signing,
Misunderstood

[``sirius orion black]

Dear Misunderstood,

Well, I am hurt that you think so low of the capabilities in an astounding brain such as mine. It is quite skilled, I can assure you. I'm tickled that you've finally admitted it. Most girls that claim to hate me would not dare to say such things, such as Lily and Mary. But, the latter of those two will find me devastatingly handsome one day. I'll make sure of it. I'll just have to get over Lily's disapproval, though, for James wants her desperately. I'm not getting in the middle of that.

-shrugs- I'm going to write however I want, missie. -grins- That made me blush, I must say. But, then again, how would you know unless I told you that I was blushing? I can hear your laugh as well when you mention it, actually. I agree. I grow weary of focusing on school work and having no one but worthless floozies to turn to. You're really the only girl that I enjoy being around to actually have a conversation with. No, for I understand completely. I wish to stay here forever but I also want to leave. I'm sort of afraid of what I will face when I leave, but I have enough stupidity brevity, if you will, to face it head on when I do.

Actually, I'm so sorry to disappoint, Missie, but they had quite attractive knickers. I attempted to find the most embarrassing, but since they are elitists, I had a doubt they would have anything that was no alluring. They are not exactly the most modest of women, if you catch my drift. haha. Perhaps that was a little rude? Why should I tell you another reason to imagine me nearly naked if you will not give me much to go on? But, then again, I did steal your panties, so I suppose that counts for something. Boxers, obviously. I'm surprised you had to ask. Only joking. I'm sure you thought I'd be different and say briefs but I find them much more constricting. Yes, well, you asked.

Well, my nickname could mean quite a few different things. It could be a reference to your exquisite porcelain skin or maybe I was suggesting your judgment of nearly everything that occurs in our world these days, for you treat everything with equal frankness. I wish I were so balanced. Just to let you know, I'm always right, Helms. I bet you learned that unwillingly. Moony won't ever admit it when I am. It's quite amusing, really. If I could, I'd really like to see them? They sound quite fascinating, these songs, especially because they're written by a Muggle. Unlike my family, I've taken an interest in the Non-Magical Folk. I've always thought it intriguing how they live. Oh dear. See, this is why I don't think I could have a serious relationship. I would be too afraid of hurting the poor girl if I even remotely showed an interest in someone else. -sighs- Give him my apologies.

Is it horrible to say that I laughed when you mentioned her attacking him? I thought it quite amusing. hahah. But, I quickly had to silence myself before McGonagall got onto me. She's been eying me for a while now, so I'll have to make it look like I'm taking notes. She'll probably see right through that, however, since that is highly unlikely. -grins- I'm sorry to hear that. I was never close to my mother nor my father. Both of them were distant to me and I realized that at a very young age. Neither of them had a real interest in making a relationship with my brother and I. They chose to keep us at a distance, but I turned out all right I suppose. I'm going to wait for confirmation from you of that comment. hahaha. There you go again telling me I'm right. I'll have to let Moony know this. He'll find it quite shocking, I hope. I'm always in Detention, but I have no strings attached to being a Prefect. I'm free of that responsibility, but I don't think I could ever get onto anyone that does the same things I do. I always wonder what James is like on duty. He's caught me a few times, but of course he doesn't say anything. I can't say the same about Moony, bloody rule follower. But, he lets me slide sometimes. Maybe I could explore with you? I know the Castle like the back of my hand, really.

Great! I can actually. hahaha. Do you enjoy me mentioning my laughter now? Is it to your approval, my darling hellion? How's that for a nickname?

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Hiding from McGonagall,
The Joker

[``kacie marie helms]

Joker,

What brain capabilities are you talking about? Unless they involve pranks, Transfiguration, and successfully getting into a girl's knickers, I believe that there is no "capablity" to speak of. As for the comment from my previous letter, sarcasm is one of my many attributes. They were tears of amusement, not of sorrow, as much as you would like to believe otherwise. =] I do hope that this is another false attempt at cockiness and to raise your ego, for I do not wish to add another poor girl to the list of heartbreaks you represent. Indeed, along with your teasing of the girls, their trips to the hospital wing will increase, should they cross my path. Who knows? Maybe they'll see you in there, as well haha. I actually saw Potter on the Quidditch Pitch the other night. Gave him some sound advice for dealing with Evans. I hope he takes it seriously.

-raises eyebrows- I'm sure I can...persuade you to write something rather different. -smirks-- It's nice to know that I have the capability of making you blush, Joker. It makes me that much more convinced that there's more than a cocky person inside of you. You're becoming more of a real person to me, and that makes me feel better. Now we're even. =] haha, I know what you mean. School is horrid, and the unwanted attention from the opposite sex is a nightmare at times. Good distractions on occasion, but tiresome when they decide they want "more". Believe it or not, boys are just as clingy as girls. In truth, I feel the same way. I'm glad that I'm able to be myself around you - if only for an hour or two. It's almost like I'm back in London with Thomas when I talk to you. I don't have to worry about keeping up some ridiculous facade in order to derail and avoid suspicion. It's hard to imagine a life outside of Hogwarts, but I'm eager to go, to fight, to contribute to the Order more than I already am. Besides, we're more alike than we let on. We may be afraid of what lies ahead, but we are not cowards.

Damn! You just had to ruin my dreams, didn't you? *sigh* You're horrible, Sirius Black. You've ruined my fun. =[ Yes, I understand they are not the most modest of women, but it would have made me feel better if you would have stolen a pair of McGonnagal's knickers and said they were Carrow or Parkinson's. Haha, who said I was imagining you nearly? I was merely asking out of curiosity. I have to admit, I am pleased with your answer, though. I once tried sleeping in a pair out of curiosity, and I found them quite comfortable. And yes, it does count for something.

Aw, I'm blushing at your touching comment. And I'm not a frank person, I'm blunt. I speak my mind when I'm able to, whether or not it hurts someone's feelings - ask Potter - or not. I believe that you are that balanced. You balance your temper with your constant mischevious acts and your "charm", as it were. Haha, don't make me laugh. You? Right? Once in a blue moon, maybe, but not always. Unfortunately, you won't be able to see them until I'm able to, which probably is not until Christmas. He said he recorded it on his camera and made a video as a gift, but I won't be able to see t until vacation. *sigh* Yes, he's actually the fourteen-year-old version of you, in a way, but he thought he saw something different in her. I knew what it was - she didn't want a relationship, she wanted money. Filthy slag. She doesn't deserve him. He really does deserve better. He's the type of boy that attracts all the wrong girls, and it pisses me off that this girl would do something like that to him. I have.

No, it's not horrible. I actually find it quite amusing. The only person that doesn't is Thomas. Haha! Oh, damn it---

Speaking of McGonnagal, I got a detention because of you, you bloody git. I think she has an idea as to who you are, Joker, so I was forced to make a deal: we can't read/write letters in her class, and she won't reveal anything. The woman is just so cruel it's unnatural. Then again, I am a...well, you know, so it's understandable that she would dislike me, no matter how well I do in her class. I think she's a bit btter about that match Gryffindor lost against Slytherin the other day. It's not my fault I'm so talented when it comes to finding the Snitch. =] The only reason you're right is because you seem to know me better than I know myself - and we've only known each other for a week or two. Oh, Potter's probably letting everyone get away with everything. You know how he is. I think that would be marvelous. There are so many mysteries to the castle yet to be discovered. Show me the way, el capitan!

Yes, I enjoy it immensly. Hmm....I like it, however, choosing a nickname for me is your final decision, not mine.


Consumed with boredom,,
Misunderstood

[``sirius orion black]

Dear Misunderstood,

Very amusing, Kacie. I must say that I am quite hurt at this. I will tell you something that I haven't even told the Marauders. I used to enjoy reading when I still lived at my house. It was something Regulus and I enjoyed together. It may seem extremely odd to you, but I have retained some of that knowledge. I even like reading nowadays, if it's for a homework project. I don't really want Moony and Padfoot realizing that I can actually do my own homework. hah. I have noticed your sarcastic nature, I can assure you. As much as you would like to believe, I am not stupid. hehe. Oh, of course it does! Everything you say adds to my ego, every word that resembles in the slightest a compliment. I certainly hope not, you devilish lady. I don't really like the smell in that place. I give him advice all of the time. He doesn't usually listen. If you managed to get inside his brain, then I must give you some house points. haha

I don't know if I meant 'blush' in the right meaning. It might be in anger that my face turns a red color, Misunderstood. Of course I'm full of nothing but arrogance. If there were ever a time for that to slip out, why, I wouldn't have any girls falling over me. Actually, I'm quite sure they would, considering the fact that they can't get past my devilish looks. I'm glad, because I'd hardly want to be considered something like Professor Binns. Then again, is he a real thing? Or just a phantom hanging on the edge of life and death. I have read that ghosts are here because they did not ever want to leave. Some say that it was because they feared death. I will never be like that. I don't fear such a trivial thing. Sure, I'd like to live to a ripe old age, but I don't want to be afraid. I will have to agree, actually. Women can be extremely irritating at the wrong times, especially when my temper is at full rise. I know, my dear. I am a boy, after all. I feel as if I might be too clingy with Prongs. After all, this possibility of he and Lily getting together bothers me. I don't want him to forget Moony and I. It would just tear me apart if he did such a thing to me. Know that anytime you need to talk straight to my face, I will drop everything to come and meet you. I swear it, Misunderstood. I wonder why you were put into Slytherin, then? I know you said it was because of your favorite color, but maybe there was something more? The Hat wanted to place me into Slytherin, but I refused. I suppose it just bases on what you want, despite your better judgment. haha.

I know. I get that a lot. But, you'll just have to deal with it. Oh, Merlin, that would have been interesting if I had gotten caught. Quite an awkward situation there. -shivers- Wow, Misunderstood, I didn't think you could be so crude. It's quite shocking, really. Good. I've always considered boxers the best. Especially when a woman wears them. -wiggles eyebrows- Of course you can picture that, for I do it quite often.

It's because I'm so charming, isn't it? I make all women blush. I pretty much say whatever the hell I want to, no matter what. I'm both frank and blunt. Yes, Prongs has told me on certain occasions how rude you are to him. I have to ask, Misunderstood, why? What has he done to you, besides the obvious pranks. I mean, I have pranked you many times. Is it because you secretly like him and you're angry that he's fallen for another girl? hahahha. I'm sorry, I couldn't resist. That's very interesting, Misunderstood. I don't think anyone's ever called me balanced with my temper. I can get quite out of hand. But, thanks anyway. Well, whenever you think I should and can, I'd be happy to! That just makes me want to meet him even more.That's why I think I don't want a serious relationship. I'm afraid of what a girl could do to me in my most vulnerable moment. I'm not ready for that. That's why I always think I'll be immature. -shrugs-

YES! My life is complete. I usually dazzle my professors with a smile and coax them into letting me off on a warning. McGonagall seems to be the only one impervious to my charms. haha. It's alright. I don't think it took her that much to figure it out what with my arrogance radiating off of the page. hehe. Yes, but she teaches, so at least she's good at something. I'll remember not to write in her class, even though I don't really pay attention anyway. I don't know why it'd bother her. -shrugs- haha. Next time I play against you, I'm going to hit every bludger towards you then make James throw as many scores as he can. I'll make us win next time. I get that a lot. Moony is quite shocked at my insight at times. I find it quite amusing. And of course, I know all mysteries!

Then, you shall stay my darling hellion. It fits perfectly, I say.


Grinning like a wolf,
The Joker

[``sirius orion black]

Kacie,

Please don't shut me out of your life. You should realize that you mean a lot to me. I know that you think you're all alone in this world because of the tragedy of your brother's death. Hell, you may even hate me, but I don't give a damn! I'll be by the tree down by the lake if you want to talk to me or even just let me see you. At midnight.

Please, just come. I need to see you. You haven't even gone to any of your classes! The professors are cutting you some slack, but you can't hide forever! I need to see you, Kacie. I need someone to talk to, and you need someone to. I know you can't be away from me for too long.

To be honest, I can't stay away from you. I don't know what the hell you did to me, but if you don't meet me out there, I'm going to do something drastic. And, I'm not telling you a damn thing about what I'm going to do. But, if I have to come in that damned Slytherin Common Room, I will find a way up those stairs to the Girl's dormitory. Don't you dare try and test me.

Begging,
Sirius[/blockquote]

[``sirius orion black]

Kacie,

So, you didn't come to the tree. I won't tell you the depth of my despair. I waited until sunrise. I thought maybe you'd forgotten, but what the hell else do you have to do? I know you're in pain, damn it! But, let me be there for you! Let me HELP you! I hate what you're doing to me. You're my friend, Kacie, don't do this to me. I can't give up on you.

You've made your choice. I'll make sure that you come out and see me. If I have to rip that portrait to shreds I will. I don't even care what the bloody password is. You ARE going to come and talk to me, even against your better judgment. I have a couple of people who like me on the inside of your House. They might be able to persuade you with possible threats.

Just get bloody down here!

Sirius

[``kacie marie helms]

Sirius,

I apologize. I am more remorseful than words can convey. I know I shouldn't have avoided you so, and looking back, I realize how ridiculous I was behaving. I was afraid. I thought that...I thought that if I wasn't near you so often that it would solve everything. You'd be free to go about your way, and I...

This is more difficult to write than I originally thought. I want to thank you, though, for everything you've done for me. It means more than you could understand that you were there for me, and I'll be forever grateful. I still miss Thomas, and on occassion, I still feel like I'm alone. Then I remember you, and I get this uncontrollable grin plastered on my face. I enjoy your company, Sirius, though - on occassion - you tend to infuriate me with these nonsense rules. How can I enjoy myself and try to deal with everything that's going on when I'm cooped up in this room?

Signing to a Relatively Short Note,
Misunderstood

[``sirius orion black]

Ma plus douce amie,

Do not regard your behavior as anything you should apologize for. I understand that your distress was more than you could naturally bear so therefore I forgive your absence, even in the pain I was caused without your presence. It was quite silly of you to think that I should forget you or want to do such a thing. How harsh is your opinion upon yourself as to think that you do not deserve such a friend as I. Especially one that loves you so completely.

I will assure with the most amount of compassion, that I will always be there for you whenever it is you shall need me. I understand your loneliness more than you realize. Maybe not the depth of your extreme despair, but a part of it I understand. I comprehend my faults to be quite baffling and irritating at times, but pray tell me that my antics have always worked, have they not? You will be able to enjoy the fresh air once you've learnt to deal with everything, once you realize that it is not the end at this moment in your life. You have people that love you and would do anything for you. Do not make such a good thing so dreary, mon amour.

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Tendrement,
ton Joker

[``kacie marie helms]

Mon Chien de garde Personnel,

How do you like my latest term of endearment? I apologize if it offends you, but it is as I see you. Later tonight, would you mind meeting me at the Lake? I am itching for a run, and I would prefer no other company than yours while doing so. I don't exactly understand it, but today...I feel better. Not completely back to normal, but I feel a bit more at ease. I can't explain it. Well, I didn't know you wouldn't leave my side before, now, did I? Years of self-loathing, my dear friend. That is what causes my opinion of myself to be so harsh. And thank you, but what is not to love? Haha!

Thank you. I really do appreciate your concern. No one besides Thomas has seen me in the right light, and I'm grateful that you seem to understand where I'm coming from. I'd hate to inconvenience you, however. I'm not so sure you would enjoy being by my side every day simply because I need your company. I can believe that. I think that's why you are so loyal to your friends. Other than the second sense of family that they provide, they are also there to keep you company, to help you when you are down and whatnot. You are very lucky to have such admiral fellows as your companions. Regrettably, I have to admit, they have always worked, much to my annoyance, haha. I know that, it's just...hard. I don't want to forget him, you know? I'm afraid that, if I don't take the time to remember Thomas often enough, I'll begin to forget him. I've already begun to forget what his voice sounds like.

=] You have a knack for cheering me up in the worst of times, you know. I'll try not to, mon amour.

Merci,
Kacie